才过了两天。
耐心一点，一切会恢复正常的。

Just fuck it.

I have a life and so many things to do.

I like you, but I'm not going to do everything for you.

Good if you like me back, but if not, it's cool.

I know everything is awkward right now and it's my fault.

But it will change tomorrow. I swear it will.

And then things will get back on track.

We'll see.

I think today I can finally go back to my life, but still keeping certain things the way it is. 

Less than a week has passed but it felt like a year.

My heart is dying to know.

Today is a normal day.

WILL BE. 

MUST BE.

Wait, Wan Ying. Wait. Don't let your imaginations run wild.

Live your life like normal. Like nothing has ever changed.

Wishing for the same thing every year but never came true.

Maybe it's time to stop?

Near or far?

Put more effort or go with the flow?

If I show some effort, would you give me what I want?

Bothered. Over analyzing.

I should stop.

Give me a sign. Show me some hope.

Please let me know.

I never thought I'd feel like this again.

It should stop.

It has to stop.

This must stop.

Wanting something so badly in life, something that my parents cannot give me, but can never bring myself to fight for it is painful.

I lost to my pride. I know. But I don't do anything about it. This makes me feel so stupid.

Look at them, so sweet. Aww.

I hang out with my girls, yet there's still a hole that needs to be filled. I love my girls, I really do. But I need something more. Something that they cannot give me. Something that I need to fight for myself.

I wish I was born lucky. I wish I was born optimistic. I wish I was born a happy person. I wish for so many things... That I may not be. I wish for somethings that may not come true.

I believe in luck, fate. I give up easily.

I struggle.

Am I a happy person?

I don't know.

I just can't say, I really want to be in love.